I'm so sorry for your loss. I'd like to share some real hope with you. In Psalms 1464 tells the condition of the dead. In Acts 2415 the bible promises a resurrection of our loved ones back to earth. When Jesus resurrected Lazarus from the dead, he brought him back to earth. That was a foregleam of the future. In Psalms 3711 29 says man will live forever on the earth in peace. That was God's original purpose, for man to live forever in the garden of eden. God's purpose hasn't changed. In Isaiah 4518 says God created the earth to be inhabited. That's why he gave his son to die for us, John 316, so we could have everlasting life on earth. In Revelation 214 says there'll be no more pain or death. Since there's no pain or death in heaven, those are future conditions on earth under God's kingdom arrangement. JW.org