WHEN I FIRST MET YOU....
The very first time I ever laid eyes upon him was back in 1982, at my cousin's home on Deer Pen Rd in Lesage, Wva, where I had told her as soon as I saw him, to please hook me up with him. I still remember the sound of her voice when she said, "WHO? ELMER?" I said YES! HIM! Please Sis, I really want to meet him, will ya please hook me up with him?
So she did just that!🥰
Because I just knew from the moment I saw him that he was
*The ONE FOR ME!* I knew he was the one that was meant for me & I was meant for him!
We were meant for each other! We were truly each other's soulmates. But things didn't work out for us like we wanted them to back then, because there were a couple of people who just didn't want that for us, so they stopped us from being together, til they couldn't control the situation or get between us anymore....
And So therefore on
🥰💕Sept.7th 2007💕🥰
when we finally got back together, we were the happiest we'd ever been and so very much in love, as if we had never been apart for all those years! We were finally where we always wanted to be and were supposed to be and that was with each other!
💓🥰💘💞
And I don't care what anybody thinks or says, they were never there to know anything, so therefore they need not say anything to me about what they think happened!!!
I loved him more than anything & still today, I love him as much as I ever did & I miss him more than life itself! 💔😭
I miss him more & more with each day that passes.
I've missed him so much since I walked out that day, when I never imagined that I'd lose him forever & would never be able to ever get him back because he died on February 13th, 2022 😭💔
I pray every day that he hears me when I tell him I'm so sorry for leaving and I hope he knows that I'VE NEVER STOPPED LOVING HIM & I NEVER WILL EITHER!
HE WAS & STILL IS MY ONE & ONLY TRUE LOVE!
I'm so sorry baby 😭
I wish I'd never thought by me leaving that that would bring him back to me & out of the depression and that dark place he had slipped into over the past two years. That's when our relationship started to change was around 2017 😔
We were losing each other, losing the us we knew & our love we had shared together & the life that we had known and wanted & fought for for so long wasn't the same as it had been, we weren't as happy as we once were. I didn't know what else to do...He was everything to me!
I just wanted him to see that & that I just wanted him to open his eyes & needed him to come back to me as the man I knew him to be & loved more than anything, more than life itself! Talking to him & begging him to please slow down on his drinking & to please come back to me before it was too late, I was so afraid I was losing him forever, but nothing seemed to get through to him at all 😥...
So I thought what can I do to get him to open his eyes and realize what was going on?
And That's when I made the worst decision I've ever made in my life by walking out our door that day I left him back in July of 2019💔😥 I was thinking it would make him finally open his eyes and realize what was happening & we could fix it before it was too late. I Was so wrong, I was so stupid!!!
But I prayed every day he would come back around and come back to me 😥
Of course, NOTHING worked out like I had wanted it to and that I had prayed so much for. But instead, it all backfired on me & the unimaginable happened!!😭💔
I just remember that horrible horrible day when my daughter called me with the most horrible news I had ever gotten & never imagined what she told me would ever happen but it did! And that was that he had passed away😭💔
I totally lost it, I felt like my whole world just crumbled all around me & I'd lost the other half of me, the best half of me died & I just wanted to die myself 😭💔
I knew then at that moment, I had really messed up worse than I've ever done by choosing to leave. I should have never walked out on him like I did, I was so stupid! 😥💔
I should have stayed & fought a lot more harder than I did! 😔 But I didn't and I have to live with that for the rest of my life now because I KNOW there is...
NO GETTING HIM BACK NOW OR NEVER, BECAUSE HE'S GONE FOREVER AND THERE'S NOTHING I CAN DO NOW 💔😭
I'LL PAY FOR WHAT I CHOSE TO DO BACK THEN FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE!
💔😥😭
AND I WILL NEVER FORGIVE MYSELF FOR WALKING OUT OUR DOOR THAT DAY!
BUT I'LL CONTINUE TO PRAY THAT HE HEARS ME EACH DAY AND KNOWS I NEVER STOPPED LOVING HIM EVEN THOUGH I WALKED OUT, I'VE ALWAYS LOVED HIM AND ALWAYS WILL!!! AND I HOPE AND PRAY HE FORGIVES ME & WHEN I DIE, I PRAY WE CAN BE AS ONE ONCE AGAIN! AS IT SHOULD HAVE ALWAYS BEEN & SHOULD ALWAYS BE!
AS I ALWAYS PROMISED YOU BABY AND IT STILL STANDS TRUE! AND WILL ALWAYS & WILL NEVER CHANGE...
MY PROMISE TO YOU MY SOULMATE, MY ONE & ONLY TRUE LOVE, FROM THE VERY FIRST DAY I EVER SAW YOU
ELMER LEE BLANKENSHIP!
I HAVE ALWAYS LOVED YOU AND I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU BABY, FOREVER AND EVER!!!
TILL THE END OF TIME!!!!
**FOR ETERNITY**
(& LONGER, IF THAT'S
POSSIBLE)
💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕
I MISS YOU MORE THAN LIFE & MORE THAN ANYONE WILL EVER KNOW!
😔😥😭💔
TIL WE MEET AGAIN BABY🤞🙏
I'LL THINK OF YOU EVERY SINGLE DAY AND NIGHT AND
YOU'LL ALWAYS BE WITH ME, ALWAYS IN AND CLOSEST TO MY HEART!💘
💞*ET4EVER4ETERITY*💞